I really try to get into a routine

I try to get into a routine, I can go a few days (seven days at most) and then I go back to sleeping during the day and up all night! Why, the fuck can I not just stay in a routine, perhaps if I can get back on my tablets?  I would love to here how you are with your routine, talking off which I need to clean up my act and I mean personal hygiene wise, I go about a week without a bath, sure this is yucky, but that is the way I feel most of time yuckie!  Most of the time I really fucking hate myself but the strange thing is I don’t know why, Do you ever feel like this?

Enough bitshing about my life, more later.